Flea

As microscopic as they are, fleas are truly some annoying little buggers. They dig into your skin, suck your blood, multiply like rabbits, and give you one ferocious itch.

But the mental fleas we unleash upon ourselves are even worse. They’re tiny, and yet they have the single-handed ability to keep us from living the life of our dreams.

If you recall from Monday’s post I told you about a ‘flea’ that one of my clients had. Her inner self had been giving her prompts to meditate more. Yet she was very afraid of the quiet. That seemingly insignificant fear turned into a flea. And that flea was sucking the life force out of her health and her relationships.

But I haven’t told you about MY flea yet…

I started writing professionally in my early 20’s. I was self-employed, single and very, very hungry for success.

I prospered, seeing the Law of Attraction give me almost everything that my minds eye had conceived. Within two months of starting out I was making almost $10K a month. I got my first publishing contract a year later, and had my first $20K day around four months after that.

My dream was to reach millionaire status before the age of 30, and I was well on my way to attaining that lofty goal.

And then I fell in love with a guy and we became inseparable.

Instead of co-mingling love and profits, I allowed my booming business to fall to the wayside. And fall it did, with a big, echoing THUD.

Those $20K days gave way to $3K months. But what hurt me the most was sitting on the sidelines and seeing the people who started in the business at the same time that I did, beginning to reach that coveted millionaire status I wanted so badly. And if that wasn’t enough, my hot and heavy relationship also ended.

That’s when my flea developed.

My flea came about because I decided to stay down-in-the-dumps. I humbly covered my light, crawled back to my little corner, and licked my wounds.

He knew I was unprotected and he dug in

Instead of jumping back into the business saddle, and brushing that little blood sucker off, I continued to wallow in my own self-pity.

Once again the Law of Attraction gave me everything that my minds eye conceived. Only this time instead of the big paydays and contract invitations, I got a teeter-totter lower middle class life. Sometimes things would be good, and sometimes they’d be less than good.

I knew I still had the ability to create a better life, but I continued to nurse the flea. It has only been within the past year and a half that I’ve begun to say NO MORE.

My flea represented one thing…

Embarrassment.

I allowed myself to become so engrossed in a relationship (which I knew wasn’t healthy for me) that I was willing to neglect my business. I allowed my clients and colleagues to see a very ugly part of me. The fact that I did that REALLY bothered me.

When the smoke cleared I was so embarrassed that I’d let all of this happen to my once thriving business I didn’t know what else to do except to hide myself. That single moment of shame changed my entire life for many, many years.

Looking for your flea

I’m beginning to see that almost everybody has one of these little fleas.

You may look at your life and see that your health is blah, or that your relationships are less than ideal. Perhaps your business is lying there like an unfinished puzzle.

Maybe you’ve attributed your woes to circumstances beyond your control. And some situations really can be blamed on somebody else.

Even still, I bet if you get your minds magnifying glass out, and look really closely, you’ll see a flea there. Some seemingly insignificant little glitch that took hold, and now has you itching like crazy.

Trust me when I say that he’s really, really small. And that’s why you’ve been able to secretly nurse this little fella for such a long time.

But I’m here to tell you that it’s time to flush his ass down the toilet once and for all. If you have the guts to face him, then you have the power to get rid of him and create a better life for yourself.

And that’s your assignment for this week – find your flea.

I don’t care whether you come to me for a reading, or close your eyes and meditate on it. The important thing is that you find him and get rid of him.

And when you’re done, get ready to feel lighter. Get ready to see and feel a healing take place. You’re going to know that you’re free.